One year ago an idea came into my mind. This idea became a dream which I wanted to become true. I had the dream of adventure, I had the dream of independence, I had the dream of freedom, I had the dream of being away from everything I know. I worked for this dream, but something happend which I never expected to happen. I met a person, a person who is so different than I am but shares the same dreams. We fell in love for each other and everything looked perfect. But the day came where both of us went on our adventures. She went to Slovakia and me to the USA. It was hard to say good bye and many tears flowed, but I always knew that I am going to see her again in 1 year. We started our new lifes, unaware of whats going on in the others life. I still had my dream in my mind and wanted to pursue it. It took me a while till I realized I am not living my dream. I realized my dreams changed in the moment I met her the first time. I am living now a dream from the past, enjoying the american culture, getting new people to know and gaining independence. Every day I learn the meaning of patience and psychical pain. I tryed many times to express in words how much I love her and how much I miss her; my result was it is impossible. There are know words existing that can represent my feelings. Christmas time is coming up. Christmas was never important to me. I went on vacation with my family, made snowball fights, sang christmas songs, baked delicious cookies. I want nothing more than make all these things together with her. Things which were indifferent for me became important. I’m going trough a nightmare, for her. She is my little star in the darkness that provides my with infinite hope, energy and motivation.
I love you.